Cold Hearted

So I've been thinking a lot about the prophecy in the scriptures that in the last days "men's hearts shall wax cold." I used to take this too literally, and serve it up as a way to blame "men" for things... but something hit me the other day as I stepped back and looked at my life (due to an apathetic reaction to something that has usually evoked emotion). Because we live in a world that is so full of temptation and evil (not to be a doomsayer, because there is great good too), but I've learned that to keep pure that I have to train myself not to be affected by certain things... however, a side effect is that I am more stone-face and have a harder time feeling emotion.

I'm so much more apathetic and it does have a lot to do with the protective walls I put up. In the church, there are more and more mid-singles (people not married in their 30+) and perhaps this protective coating is the reason why. However, it is a catch-22. If I let my walls down and allow myself to "feel" things, there is a possibility that I might make some mistakes and need to repent. If I stay the way I am... apathetic and safe, I am without love in my life. What should I do?

Comments

Angela said…
Let your walls down Camille. It is so much better to know that you put whole slef out there and gave love a try. No regrets that way. Call for a pep talk!
Unknown said…
Well, "Men are that they might have joy." If you are not feeling absolute joy, then I think you might need to change it up a little bit. I am often criticized about being too giddy and immature, and I used to try to stifle that. But it's really fun to put your whole heart into things even if its a little scary. Sounds like we need a girl's night.
Anonymous said…
I just saw this and it reminded me of your post, which was so open & cool. I thought you'd like it. Brene Brown talking about our fear of vulnerability on TED:

http://www.livestream.com/tedxkc/video?clipId=pla_ee7b7e83-9020-44f8-9c4f-e06e3b414c3c
Camille said…
Dear Anonymous... I just watched that clip you recommended and it was phenomenal I'm going to do a separate blog about it... thanks for the tip.

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