The Thirty Meltdown
I've just surfaced from an interesting part of my life. I'm one of those people who like to set their mind to something and even against unrealized odds, try to persevere to see it through.
In January I started to become more and more aware that I was turning 30. I had several friends around that time whose significant birthday's negatively effected them. I decided that I wouldn't allow 30 to affect me, rather that I would approach it with optimism and excitement. Huh, you know what's funny is that despite what I decided, I think I just realized I had a bit of a breakdown.
All of the sudden, I began to subconsciously questioning where my life was going, if I had "real" friends at all, and what my life had to show for itself. Why? Why would a number... 30... make me wage internal warfare?
I think this past trip to Sacramento was good for me for several reasons... the main reason being, taking some time to phase out for a moment and gain some perspective. Luckily, I've since been at total peace... and quite grateful really for the many things that I do have. I guess for someone who likes to be in control of my life, this time life got a little bit away from me. :)
In January I started to become more and more aware that I was turning 30. I had several friends around that time whose significant birthday's negatively effected them. I decided that I wouldn't allow 30 to affect me, rather that I would approach it with optimism and excitement. Huh, you know what's funny is that despite what I decided, I think I just realized I had a bit of a breakdown.
All of the sudden, I began to subconsciously questioning where my life was going, if I had "real" friends at all, and what my life had to show for itself. Why? Why would a number... 30... make me wage internal warfare?
I think this past trip to Sacramento was good for me for several reasons... the main reason being, taking some time to phase out for a moment and gain some perspective. Luckily, I've since been at total peace... and quite grateful really for the many things that I do have. I guess for someone who likes to be in control of my life, this time life got a little bit away from me. :)
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